Halloween is just around the corner and houses and streets are lined with pumpkins, scarecrows and ‘spooky’ decorations. Kids are gearing up to sport their costumes on the 31st and haunted houses are preparing to scare anyone that walks through their door which brings me to ask the question…What scares you?
Seriously, when was the last time you felt afraid?
Fear doesn’t come from something jumping out at you or a spider appearing out of nowhere. It can steam from a change, taking action, or a movement.
Currently I am in the midst of a transition that has had me feeling very fearful and apprehensive.
I am moving.
As I am sitting here writing this I still do not know where I will be living. I have a place in mind but it is now up to the landlord to decide.
I chose to leave my old place due to it’s toxic environment. It was triggering old emotions and ways that could send me into a downward spiral. I was afraid that if I were to stay, all the hard work I have put in the past 5-6 years would suddenly be lost, so I gave notice.
But I was afraid!
What if I can’t find a place to live? What if the next place is just as bad? Worst of all, what if I am the problem???
I have been out of my place for over a week now as the original place I was planning to move into pulled out last minute. I have been crashing on friends couches and sleeping in cheap hotels. Or shall I say, trying to sleep, since my mind has been racing and concerned about where I will end up.
Although I have faith in this new place, I am scared. It is away from what I am used to and will change my daily routine. There is no beach close by to ground me. There are no trails within walking distance to elevate me. It is forcing me to step outside my comfort zone and create new healthy habits.
A change like this may excite many of you, but for me it brings on uncertainty and uneasiness.
Right now I am homeless (with great friends!) but guess what, I am doing all right.
I am still surviving.
If this next opportunity works out, it will be a great healthy environment for me. Without a doubt, a step up!
Albeit scared, I took a leap of faith and did what was necessary.
It wasn’t easy, it took careful thought while pushing fears aside.
But I did it and in my heart believe that everything is going to work out the way it supposed to.
This week, while everyone is prepping to scare each other, I challenge to you to do something that scares you!
What’s is that going to be? Tell me in the comments below!